reposted from twitter :)
Very tl;dr haha XD
Michelle’s chair gifs/graphics always makes me flail, but I’ve been fangirling extra over her latest “us” cb parallel.
It’s so gorgeous, because it’s like…looking at CB from far away, and yet seeing all the intricate moments that always bound Chuck and Blair together. I feel sort of overwhelmed - it’s like when you listen to a piece of music that is so beautiful, you can’t fathom it - that’s what CB is like, for me.
From the time when they were babies, having a secret relationship - the buildup to 1.10 - limosex, the Erikson Beamon necklace - to the excruciating pain and pleasure of season 2, where they referred to themselves as “us” before they were even a couple. As Anne (blairhappiness) said, Blair always knew that Chuck loved her (2.13 - calling C a ‘narcissist’ implied that he was holding back his feelings). Chuck always knew that Blair loved him (2.08 - the reason why we can’t say it isn’t because it’s not true). It was the fear of how their relationship would change after those three words, eight letters were said.
What I love about CB is that they went through these hurdles together, for the most part - and even when they weren’t together they still were, if that makes sense. They still were an “us”. Even after Blair had hurt Chuck in 3.06, even after the writers started unravelling CB for the sake of drama. Even after Safran burned CB into ash - 4.02 brought something so heart-wrenchingly beautiful to Chuck and Blair.
And in season 4, CB were still an “us”, even after Blair ran Eva out of town, even after Chuck brought Jenny Humphrey back, even after massive amounts of hatesex —- they became friends again. “For us a million, the world zero”. Even when they decided they couldn’t be a couple/friends. Even after Chuck reached the worst of his self-destructiveness.
I watched 4.22 yesterday and it was so beautiful - the bar mitzvah, Blair clapping and dancing - the girl who said that her hair didn’t sparkle when it caught the light - but she was so beautiful in her dress, and she exuded happiness, from her heart. And HER FACE being lifted up on the chair. I think one of the many things that is so beautiful about CB is how Chuck sees her, like no one else does. To quote Sophia, “he’s in awe of her.” From 1.07 when she danced at Victrola - he saw something in her - a side of Blair - that no one else saw. Blair was so used to being passed over for Serena, so used to Nate taking her for granted (although he loved her very much) - and here she had completely transfixed the ultimate bad boy, the “devil” of the UES. The virgin queen, the girl who was in line to wear the Vanderbilt ring, the girl who hurting and broken inside, despite her ‘frigid facade’ (D) she showed to the world. This girl - captivated - Chuck Bass. “I can’t sleep, I feel so ashamed” - she had him around her little finger. Blair had a certain amount of power - that went largely underestimated by everyone, who assumed that her power lay in her ability to rule as Queen - but really, she had so much more power than that. The power of her beauty, sexual power (she had captivated Nate and Chuck Bass, of all people, with little experience) and of course her “mind-game mastery”….but Chuck never underestimated her power.
Season 5 was mostly painful - in a very bad way - but looking at the ‘us’ quotes, what I found most interesting was that Chuck Bass was saying most of them - he was fighting for CB as hard as Blair fought for them in season 2.
5.10 -pre crash - had some of the most beautiful scenes in the entire season.
Blair was so scared and tired, and her voice was small. Her hair was parted to the side, and looked a little matted. But Chuck heard her, the same way he heard her in 1.07, when no one was listening. Even though her voice was so small. And when Chuck kissed her, something awakened in her - his cheeks flushed red - and I’m certain it was just like true love’s kiss mentioned in 3.04. Just like the night at Victrola, when Blair shed her dress, breaking free of society’s rigid expectations. And I think from that night, they became an “us”. Not just because they were together with sex, but because they gave in to the pull — the pull that took Blair away from Nate, from the future Eleanor had set for her —- and for Chuck, he gave in to loving Blair - not only with fire, but with compassion — as he had never done before. You can see Blair though Chuck’s eyes - someone mentioned that Chuck saw Blair as a precious treasure, the way he held her, her entire tiny body fitting around his hands. In 1.08, he put the necklace on her, and kissed her shoulder, so gently, with remorse for Nate - and I believe that he truly felt her pain. The way he touched her in 5.10 was the same - Blair was his treasure - no matter how she dressed, acted, or treated him, or which phase in her life she was going through. Blair is and has always been, the only girl Chuck ever loved. 5.10 was such a huge development for Chuck. He had always sacrificed his own happiness, (Blair has proven to be his only happiness), because he was afraid that he couldn’t make her happy. “You should be with me” shook my entire world. Because I think, in loving Blair so much, and her baby, he felt love for himself too, for maybe the first time ever - because he loved himself enough to know that he could love Blair as she deserved, and raise her baby. I think that was why that scene caused an earthquake in my heart. Because Chuck Bass, whose father had treated him with resentment, who had grown up thinking that he killed his mother for most of his life, who slept with Jenny because he hated himself so vehemently, who gave the love of his life to another man — this Chuck Bass —- loved himself.
Chuck has grown SO MUCH in season 5, and I hope we’ll be able to witness Blair’s growth too in season 6 - so that Chuck and Blair will be a stronger “us” than ever before.
Lovely essay! Submitted by blairhappiness.